Today I cried a little. I was worrying about my boys. Noah found me crying. Noah: What's wong, owie? Me: No, mommy is sad. Noah: fire? hot? Me: No, mommy is sad.
He wiped a tear from my face and said, "wash?" which I think means "wipe" because when he wants his nose wiped he says, "washy nose?".
What a sweet baby. I cried a little more. I love my babies.
I can't believe how fast December is flying. it's going to be Christmas before I know it. It snowed yesterday. when I looked out the window I couldn't help but think it looked like a Christmas card The week before last Asher was sick with a cold almost every time he coughed he would gag and throw up I felt like he was throwing up every feeding i would say a prayer each time hoping that he would keep it down last Wednesday's appointment at Shriner's showed the effects. he lost weight. stink and a few tears! on top of that, last week he wouldn't eat. He would cry at the very sight of a bottle. i found myself trying to force feed him which only worked some of the time. this is very hard on a mother. I finally called the doctor on Friday. She said to take the polycose out of his bottle (used to increase calories) and try a cup I did things have slowly gotten better Sunday he started eating better yesterday he ate more then he has ever eaten in his life (volume) he's eating solids with more ease and less gagging He hasn't thrown up in about a week (which is the best it's been since his birth, i think) Things are really looking up. I learned something at last Relief Society session of conference. we were encouraged to pray to be equal to the task and not always to ask for our burdens to be lightened that's what i got out of it anyway I admit at times I really want to ask for my burdens to be lightened, really, really and maybe sometimes I do but there is something to be said of asking to be strengthen that you might be able to endure I love when Noah says mom or mommy. His speech delay still makes this new and precious for me. This morning he said "I luf you" without me saying it first. my heart was happy. He and Asher played a little today both were laughing and again my heart was happy.
Be thou humble in thy weakness, and the Lord thy God shall lead thee, Shall lead thee by the hand and give thee answer to thy prayers. Be thou humble in thy pleading, and the Lord thy God shall bless thee, Shall bless thee with a sweet and calm assurance that he cares. - Be Thou Humble - pg. 130 of the LDS Hymnal
